Dopper

You all know I have a problem with drinking. No, I'm not an alcoholic. It's no such thing. I don't drink enough. Water, that is. I'm just never thirsty and I forget to drink. Another reason why I hardly ever drink water, is that I find it over the top to buy bottles of water. I can't spend money on plain water.

To my surprise, I bought myself this water bottle in Holland. I definitely need to drink more water and I had this idea the Dopper bottle could help me do so. The Dopper bottle is a plastic bottle that has been designed to hold almost 0.5 liters of water. It can be filled with tap water whenever you feel this quench coming up. Take it to school, to work, on outings, in the car,.. Dopper bottles are leak proof and you can clean them in the dishwasher. Just as simple as that!

The bottles come in pink or blue. They don't only look awesome, it's exactly what they are! Ever since I got myself this Dopper bottle, I have drunk 1.5 liters of water a day. This is how I do it: in the morning, I get my Dopper out of the dishwasher. I put some slices of lemon in the bottle before I fill it up with fresh and cold tap water. You close the bottle with the cup and cap. Take it along wherever you go. It fits in my purse or in the cup holder of my car. But most of the time, I keep it in my hand, since the cap makes it an easy job. The Dopper is empty before you know it. Just fill it up again: there are more taps in your area than you are aware of. Nothing wrong with tap water, on the contrary: it gets checked all the time. No more store bought water bottles in my house. I fill my Dopper whenever I need to. I even take it to bed at night. 

I would recommend the Dopper bottle to all of you, for it's a very fine product. It's not expensive at all and you'll be hooked to your bottle before you realize it. Make sure to personalize it, because you wouldn't want anyone to steal yours! Have fun! Dopper!

But really!

Drawing by Eva Joos

What a surprise!! The day you showed me a sketch of what would finally be this drawing, I didn't really know what to say to you, besides: that's wonderful!
Every now and then, you get your pencils and paper out. That's when you let your inspiration loose in a drawing.
I must admit: you are very creative. Painting, drawing, crafting, making jewelry.. there's so much you like to do. For quite some time, you have been drawing top models. You couldn't stop and the inspiration was immense. It's a good way to express yourself and show your creativity.

Keep doing what you're doing sweetie. You're good at it. Thanks for sharing your work with us.

I'm looking forward to our jewelry class. It'll be fun to be creative together. And I already know I'll learn a lot from you.

Impressions

A pigeon is hopping up and down on one leg on a Délifrance coffee table. The other leg is missing, but it doesn't seem to bother her. I'm mesmerized, although pigeons are definitely on my not-a-fan-of list. I wonder how it lost its leg..

They are sitting beside me on a stone bench. Dressed up to the nines - I see very fine stockings under that  plaid skirt - they discuss the shop in front of them. Forever 21, it's called and it's brand new - in Belgium, that is. One lady has been there before. She says the store is just amazing, but the clothes are no more than rags. "Exactly what the youth wants to wear..", I hear her say.

The pleasant sound of a violin is coming through from behind me. I hear the hollow sound of coins falling on the floor. They're meant to be dropped into the empty ice cream box, but the person donating was in a hurry I guess. I'm sure the violin player will pick it up asap.

He's kissing his infant. It's probably not older than 3 weeks. He's crazy about her. I can see the sparkle in his eyes. He holds her like she's the most precious girl he's ever seen.. She doesn't open her eyes once. She looks content and she feels safe and loved in his arms. Sweat has curled the shiny black hair in her chubby little neck. She has a nice tan, just like her daddy. Brazilian, I would say.

I see them leave Forever 21. Both ladies are holding on to their yellow plastic bags. I wonder what they have purchased? Maybe they needed rags to polish their antique dining tables? They make me smile without a sound.

He's in a wheelchair. Just like the pigeon, a leg is missing. Well, part of his leg is. She's having an ice cream. With a white plastic spoon, she scoops little dollops of vanilla ice cream from her cone. It spoils her bright lipstick. He wipes her mouth with his thumb. They look very much in love. It looks like they've been married for 50 years. Would he be a diabetic? That's a question I always ask myself when I spot missing limbs.

In a very girly voice, he asks his colleagues where they want to have lunch. He gives them several options, waving his hands from side to side, palms up. I like his scarf. I don't like the squeaking of his voice though. His colleagues don't seem to mind. They follow him around like fluffy yellow chicks.

The smell of hot Belgian sugar waffles tickles my nostrils. I'm sure Lana will ask for one. Maybe Eva will prefer a smoothie? They're taking their time. I gave up a while ago. It's better to let them explore the shops by themselves. They won't go crazy. They know their limits.
I hope..

The sun warms my face, while I'm enjoying the impressions of a Friday afternoon on the Meir in Antwerp. I was pretty content to sit there and observe the world. Shopping is exhausting. I prefer to spot people..

Safe and sound

Today you're leaving for Florida, US. You and your family, that is. I'm so excited for the 5 of you! I just know you will have a fantastic vacation abroad, full of laughter and joy. The sun is even out there, ready to warm your bodies and hearts.

I know your schedule will be busy and packed, so I'm not expecting any extended mails or so. Have fun! Say hi to the alligators and don't forget to water the palm trees in front of the apartment at Caribe Cove. I'll  miss you but I most definitely give you the pleasure you deserve. Enjoy!

Like peas and carrots

We really get along well. Our numerous trips abroad can confirm that. These last three days weren't any different. Joy, laughter, fine dining, shopping, friendship and a wonderful musical. This time, we were guests in the musical Zorro. Who doesn't know Zorro? It's a series we liked to watch as kids. Zorro was handsome and adventurous and sexy. I assume we didn't see the sexiness at such a young age, but we knew he was goodlooking to say the least. In those days, I liked to go horseback riding. My riding was nothing compared to Zorro's skills on a horse, but we shared the same love for horses. The musical was full of Gipsy King songs, another favorite of my youth. I had several tapes (no cd's back then) and I liked the guitars and the southern feeling the music brought me.

Thank you for the organization, the company and the good time. Looking forward to next month's musical!

Fertilizing bad behavior

I believe in positive reinforcement. I have had this belief for ages. In my very short career as a kindergarten teacher, but also as a mom and friend. There's not much difference in saying motivating words over negative phrases, but the feeling the receiver gets from those words, may make a whole world of difference. It doesn't take that much an effort to compliment someone. It's not that hard to tap someone on the shoulder and tell him how great a job he did. Even though those actions are not difficult, it's a whole lot easier to let someone know how they suck.. how poorly they behave and how useless they are.

Fertilizing bad behavior is not very rewarding. What if someone would keep telling you how bad you are or how you suck at what you do? How would that make you feel? Pretty insecure, I guess. It sure wouldn't give you a good feeling about yourself. If people keep pointing out the negative characteristics of one person, they loose sight of the good points. All the other person will hear, are not very pleasant remarks. It will do nothing but feed the negative behavior instead of encouraging the other person to work on the good skills he has.

Both children and grown ups like to get compliments. Not all the time! The compliments need to be sincere and well considered. Hollow words won't bring you anywhere. Believing in what you say will help the other in accepting the compliment. The world can be such a nice place. Make living worthwhile. It won't cost you anything to make someone else's life easier and brighter through positive reinforcement.

The attack of the tiger!

Arthur, Arthur.. you're a piece of work you know. We adopted you when friends of ours moved to a different place and they couldn't bring you. Ever since, we have taken care of you and we got used to your own little habits. Drinking from the tap in the tub, is your specialty but also necessary to make sure you don't get bladder infections. There's also the fish bowl to drink out of, but you still prefer the tap in the bathroom.

All of a sudden, you had to share the household attention with a whippet. You had no idea what to think of her, but you had no reason to dislike her either. Well, at least, that's how we see it. Only 6 months later, a second whippet came to live with us and you stuck to your opinion: they weren't welcome.. They don't bother you, but you love to tease them. Waiting around the hedge in the backyard, ready to attack them when they come outside to play. Your nails are sharp as razor blades and whippet skin is so thin it's like the skin of a baby mouse. I can see the grin on your face when you catch them by surprise. You are so proud of yourself and you sit up straight to make yourself taller. That's when you lick your fur and indulge yourself in victory.. You're very lucky these whippets hold no grudge against you! They have not made one single attempt to get back at you, on the contrary. Inthe is the first one in line to make sure we let you in the house, whenever you're sitting on the window sill. Too bad you can't see that.. Both whippets are so patient with you and they really care for you. Don't you remember, when you weren't feeling so well, they came to visit you with every sneeze they heard? Just try to love them back, Arthur, they mean no harm.

Little monkey

You cheeky little boy! I was so happy you came to play with us last Thursday. Where's the little baby gone?? You're one now and you have made so much progress. Crawling around the house, making funny  noises and "asking" questions.. well, that is: uh? uh? while you're pointing at almost everything. There's not one thing you're not interested in. Playing with wooden spoons and colanders, I observed you. We even made an instrument for you: an empty bottle of soda filled with dry rice did the trick. You couldn't stop shaking the bottle and danced to the rhythm. What a funny guy!

The girls were so glad you were still here when school was out. The grins on their faces were charming. And so was yours! You like to have people around you. Even the cat, sitting outside on the window sill, fascinated you. Shouting at him and banging against the window, you tried to pull his attention.

So young, so naive, so playful.. and most of all: so happy. It's pretty obvious your mommy and daddy love you a lot and do whatever they can to give you the best in life. So many cuddles, so many nice words result in a happy little boy. Life is beautiful..

I admit. J'avoue. Ik beken..

Addictions are horrible. Addictions are so difficult to confess. It's not something to be proud of. It's not something you would tell people about on a first date: "Hi! I'm an addict. How are you?"
No matter what the addiction is: drugs, sex, alcohol, cigarettes, food, gambling.. addictions are not something one would long to have.
Addictions demand so much attention and they suck up all of your energy. Life is focussed around the addiction and it's always present. It's there when you get up in the morning. It keeps you busy through the daytime and it keeps you from sleeping. It's sheer horror.

Once you're ready to confess you're an addict, there's an opening to heal. As long as you keep it a secret, there's not much that can be done. Help is out there. You don't have to go through this on your own. There are people around you that love you and that are ready to catch you when you fall, as they have done in the past. If only you would admit you need help. Don't think you can do this by yourself. It's just too hard. I understand that you want to do this on your own and you gave it a shot - how ironic is that - but it didn't work out. That's okay, that's not a problem. We're not judging you. Maybe you weren't ready yet. It takes insight and therapy, courage and perseverance to leave the addiction behind. Listen to the people that surround you and who want nothing but the best for you. They see things from a different angle. They have experience and they know where to get help. Don't be so pigheaded.. there's no need to be ashamed. Be brave, be ready. I hope you will make that phonecall soon.

The thing

You call it "the thing", he calls it Bruno. It's not supposed to be called anything, since it doesn't belong there. Just the thought of this thing, makes you sick to your stomach. It's affecting you and your family in a way you had never expected. A young man, this active and so in to sports, leading a good life with his girlfriend. He didn't ask for Bruno to come interrupt his life. Bruno decided he needed a place to live..
We ask "the thing" to shrink and disappear. It's just too spooky. It doesn't belong with your son. It doesn't belong with anyone. It needs to go away now, so your son can get better and move on with his life. Preferably as the man he was before Bruno came to live with him. We keep our fingers crossed for him. So many people out there that he's not even aware off, thinking of him and wishing him all the best. He's surrounded by people that love him, by a wonderful, caring family. That is your responsibility. You keep the family together and you send your family strong, loving vibes. He will be okay.. he will be okay. Have faith.

Soulmates

For a brief moment, we discussed soulmates. We both knew what the other meant. A soulmate, you know, that one special person in your life you can share anything with. That one person who can read you without subtitles. That special person you can talk to without speech. Soulmates are unique ; soulmates are to be nurtured. Soulmates can tell you so much about yourself. They are a mirror to the soul, if you want.

What if you lost your soulmate and you miss him like hell? What if you never find another soulmate like the one you used to have? Most likely, you will never find a similar soulmate.. But maybe you will encounter someone with an 8/10. Not perfect, not like your first soulmate, but real close. Your first soulmate will always be in your heart. There were too many shared moments and those moments will always remain special. Cherish that thought and be thankful for the times you had together. You can still talk to him. He hears you. Because you were soulmates and you didn't need to hear each other to understand one another..

Put your best foot forward

I'm a little nervous... Today the 4th symposium of the BVVDE (Beroepsvereniging Vlaamse Verpleegkundigen Diabetes-Educatoren) is taking place in Orsmaal. It's a huge event and I have been invited as a speaker. In the afternoon, I will tell my diabetes life story for a room full of professionals. It's not that I have not spoken in public before, but this is somehow a little different. I'm used to gathering with the diabetes experts I call my friends, but for the first time I'm going to tell my story to professional diabetes educators. I understand it's a unique chance to let the professionals know how important they are in our diabetes treatment.

I feel honored. My diabetes nurse has asked me to step forward and do this testimonial. It means she has faith in me. I'm so lucky to have her as my professional nurse. She has become a good friend in a very short time. She's so much more than my nurse. I do understand that not all diabetes nurses can become friends with their patients, but it's always an advantage if they get to know the person behind the diabetes. We're so much more than a chronic disease. And that's exactly what I would like to talk about today.

Cross your fingers for me, okay? Let's hope I won't have a low blood sugar during my speech...

It's easier said than done

We all have our own specific characters. Not one person is perfect or even close to perfect. It's our job to evaluate ourselves and see what we can do to improve our ways. It can be pretty confrontational, I admit and maybe at first, you will ignore the signals. But then you think things over and you realize there is room for improvement.

It is now time to consider what things you would like to alter and what features can stay the same. Maybe you can ask a true friend's opinion? If they are honest, they can help you. What we don't like in our friends, are often characteristics we dislike in ourselves.. so friends can be a mirror to the soul.

Like I stated before: it's easier said than done.. It's a work in progress. Or WIP for that matter.

The lady is a tramp

Not an obvious combination, but very well worth the effort. Lady Gaga I knew, but Tony Bennett was new to me. The magic between the two works real well. I became instantly happy listening to this song and watching the interaction between these wonderful singers. I needed a booster after a troublesome week and this video did the trick. My appetite for more has awakened.

Back in time

Photo by Lana Joos

You got a third lens for your camera. It was a good investment, to buy that camera from our friend. So far you have made so many beautiful shots. People are startled that you make these pictures without any schooling at the young age of 16. The results are absolutely stunning. Photographers need this special eye and you have got it.

Photo by Lana Joos

The places you pick out to make photographs, are unique too. This time, you, your sister and her friend found an abandoned house. Full of cobwebs, but the ideal background for the theme you had in mind. Your sister and her friend were more than willing to be your models of the day. Your sister is learning a lot from you and she looks up to you for what you achieve. You give her tips and you take her along on your photography routes.

When you chose economics as your main subject in school, we had no idea what could be your later job in life. You had no specific career in mind at the time. It may be a little early to speculate, but there are some subjects you really like to do. Maybe journalism could be your future? You would love to see the world, explore, see things, write about it, take pictures. Sounds interesting, doesn't it? It may be something to keep in the back of our head, for future decisions. In the mean time, keep doing what you do well: making wonderful snapshots.

Don't you see?

It's just hilarious to observe the two of you. Each one of you has its own character, but still you look so much alike. Sometimes I compare you to meerkats, you know, those wonderful small creatures that stand up on their hind legs and move their tiny heads from left to right and back in a very short time.
Having my lunch at the kitchen table, I observed you hopping up and down on the deck. You were jumping on your hind legs and your front legs were tapping on the window sill. You're too funny and I can't but laugh out loud when I see you do that.
You don't like to go outside all by yourself. Too afraid you might miss something important or interesting in the house. So you try to pull my attention by jumping up and down and throwing yourself against the window. Sometimes we only see Inthes head pass by, like she were a character of the Muppet Show. It's just too funny. But mainly it's you, Rebba, who paces along the window, praying for someone to open the door and let you in. You simply can't believe nobody sees you and you do whatever it takes to make yourself noticed. Let me be clear: we do see you Rebba. Just try to be a bit more patient.. Rome wasn't built in one day. It won't kill you to stay outside for 5 more minutes..

Photo by Lana Joos

I shouldn't be alive

Do you ever think you were never meant to be born?
I mean, really, not all children enter this world voluntarily or wanted. What if you were never meant to be born? What if the pregnancy was never meant to happen in the first place? Isn't that a horrible thought? As a child, would you feel not loved or would your parents hold a grudge against you for being born? It would be hard to find out I guess..

There's this series on TV, called: I shouldn't be alive. It's not about unwanted pregnancies, but about friends or families in life threatening situations. How they try their utmost to help the other survive a battle they are doomed to loose. I record this series and watch it at night. Every single time, it amazes me how friends and family help each other without calling themselves heroes. They are there and all that matters at the time, is to make sure the others are okay. With every vessel in their body, they give their best shot helping the others survive. Plane crashes, attacks by grizzly bears, sunken ships in black deep oceans.. Any scenario imaginable, but all so real and scary. People do survive horrible situations and it will definitely strengthen their mutual bond. In some episodes, life wasn't good between some of the family members. The dramatic situation they are in, changes everything. All of a sudden, they have to rely on each other in order to survive. There's no room for fights or feelings of guilt. Nothing but the strong will to survive. It's a wonderful series. You should watch it.

I'm impressed

That is what I would like to say to you, the day I will come over and hear you play the piano or listen to you sing. I'm so curious about this talent and at the same time I already know you are good. I know what your speaking voice sounds like and I would love to hear you sing. I can't imagine your singing voice, but it's probably very clear and pleasant to listen to.

When you tell me about the times you go to your father's place, to sing with one of your sisters, that gives me a very special feeling. A feeling of belonging together, a feeling of family spirit and alliance. Is it possible to focus on nothing else but the music and the voices that go with it? Is it a way to set yourself free and let go?

Please let me know when you are ready to let me hear you. I would be very honored to be your audience.

Nutella girl and peanut boy

She's a real hype, this beautiful young woman from Antwerp, who shares her life with this wealthy American man. "Den John" has become a statement in Flanders and he has stolen many hearts with his joy of life and the love for his wife. He makes more phonecalls a day than youngsters text messages, but still he is very available to spend time with his Astrid, his "darling". They have their own reality show, by the name of Astrid in Wonderland. There is nothing shocking to be seen, but it's amusing to watch.

Astrid has a soft spot for shoes or should I say: Louboutins? Her dress room is filled with shoes, extremely expensive purses, "amazing" clothes. She drives her own "chromed out pimped out pussy wagon" and that phrase made her world famous, in Flanders that is. We all know "how cool is that" and how "totally out of control" her life is. Nevertheless, she's not that extravagant. I believe she's still pretty normal compared to her American friends. It may be her being raised over here, that keeps her humble enough to withstand the total depravity of a rich woman's life. She's not that decadent that it would repulse you. It's just that she finds everything so "amazing" and that Snoopy has his own important role in the family, that makes her .. well .. something else.

"Den John" is so energetic - did you notice that drawer full of vitamins?? - and a very bubbly personality. One can tell he loves Astrid to pieces. They act like toddlers, playing with stuffed animals in bed, but I believe they have the time of their life. One can't be offended by this show, since it's so "normal" but at the same time "surreal". I mean, what's so newsbreaking about the fact that "Den John" likes his peanutbutter & jelly sandwich (not for breakfast, no thanks) while Darling Astrid indulges her jar of Nutella on toast? Exactly.. not shocking, but good entertainment. I wouldn't want to miss one episode.

It's a small world after all

You and your brother immediately stole my heart, when I entered your home in the middle of a snowstorm that March. Your older brother sat in my lap right away, while you were a bit more timid. But soon enough we got to know each other better and we became best friends.
It was my job to bring you to school and pick you up around lunch. We had long chats in the kitchen and we had so much fun playing in the basement. I remember you riding your go-cart in the snow, wearing nothing more than a pair of jeans and a t-shirt. Your ear to ear grin is a picture in my head I will never forget..

We keep in touch, your parents and I. When they let me know you were diagnosed with diabetes in 2006,  I was gobsmacked.. No... not you David... that was not fair!!!! I got my diagnosis 4 years earlier, but I was already an adult, married, with two children. You were only 18 and you have a whole life ahead of you. You were not supposed to get diabetes. I wished for you and your family a happy and healthy life without worries.

You had a hard time letting diabetes come into your life. It was not something you welcomed.. I wanted to come over and give you a hug. Let you know everything was going to be okay. I wanted to relieve your pain. Diabetes is a chronic disease, and up till now there's no cure. We keep hearing a cure is in sight, but so far, we're still waiting. We still need to provide our bodies with insulin and we need to poke our fingers several times a day to prevent complications in later life.

I read your family article online. I'm so proud of you guys! What a commitment. You are so lucky to have a supportive family. They love you to pieces, David! You're a pretty special boy, you know. I know you're a man now and it's been so long since I last saw you, that I still see the little blond boy you were back then in Chelmsford, Mass.

Let me copy the article here. The Juvenile Diabetes Research Foundation could use some extra funding. Good luck David! Till we meet again. Say hi to your mom, dad and brother for me, okay?

Chelmsford Family To Walk to Cure Diabetes

The McHugh Family will participate in the annual 5k.

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Chelmsford residents Dennis and Susan McHugh walked their first 5K with the Juvenile Diabetes Research Foundation (JDRF) five years ago and have not given their feet a break since.

“The annual JDRF walk is very personal for us,” said Susan McHugh.

The couple discovered JDRF back in 2006 shortly after their son David, then 18, was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes.

“When we first found out our son was diagnosed we really didn’t know how to help him or ourselves,” said McHugh. “The disease really is a life-changing thing that affects so many people.”

Following the news of their son’s diagnosis, the family contacted a close friend who referred them to JDRF. According to McHugh, she and her family quickly became involved in the organization, walking in the Boston 5k that year.

“We walked then and continue to walk because we see what the organization is doing. We want more of it and we want to support it,” she said.

Since 2006, the McHugh family has continued to work with JDRF not only by consecutively participating in their annual 5k, but also by speaking at informational meetings hosted by the foundation as well.

“There are a lot of organizations out there doing great things, and JDRF is one of them,” said McHugh. “They really have found the magic and caused us to be hopeful.”

McHugh said seeing the event grow year after year has brought her hope.

“The first walk we did was amazing,” McHugh said. “We met other families going through the same thing we were, and there was so much positive energy. We were all there to help support the research that will make the lives of those affected better now.”

McHugh said the families she's met through the walk are inspiration for her to keep going.

“Living with diabetes is manageable, but it comes with lots of complications,” she said. “It’s not like you can skip treatment one night, like you can with brushing your teeth. It’s an ongoing thing. The only thing consistent about the disease is its inconsistency.”

McHugh hopes that the support from her family and others in and around Chelmsford continue to raise money and awareness for a promising future of diabetes.

“I believe the disease can be cured,” McHugh said. “The answer is out there, and we just have to push it over the edge to us.”

McHugh and her family will be lacing up their sneakers for their fifth 5k with JDRF this Saturday, Oct. 1. She hopes others in the community will support the event as well.

“The walk itself is going to be on a beautiful day, with lots of wonderful people and lots of fun,” she said.

Although she is excited for this year’s event, McHugh knows that her support for JDRF and the future of diabetes is just getting started.

“Things can always happen, and we all must support each other to find a solution,” she said. “We will beat this. We will walk forever if that is what it takes.”

To donate to the McHugh family in their walk in the JDRF 5K this Saturday, please visitwww.walk.jdrf.org, click on "Donate to a Walker" and type in Susan or Dennis McHugh. 

For donkey's years

It seems like ages ago that I left for the US to live an au pair's life. At the same time: it seems like yesterday..
It was one of the best years of my life and I'm so happy I persisted in going. It was a risk, since you don't know the host family you're going to stay with. You do get a portfolio with pictures and a description of their family life, but at the time there was no phone or mail contact. So you need to straighten your back, look forward and jump in the deep. It was a very good decision of mine to go and experience a whole different way of life.

When you told me you wanted to go to school in Italy, my heart melted. Memories, nostalgia, call it whatever you want, but I could sense your excitement and your expectations of this unique chance. I told you to go for it and have the time of your life. We didn't think you would leave that soon. After you got your report card on Thursday, you only had the weekend left to pack your things and get organized. Your parents drove you all the way to Trieste, Italy, to help you find boarding. You were probably as nervous as excited, but hey: who wouldn't be? After all, you have always lived in your parent's house and this is your first time away from home. All by yourself, cooking your own meals, you will roam around the streets of Trieste and go to Italian colleges. I envy you, cupcake. I wish I were 20 again.. 

You keep in touch and it's good to read you every now and then. I have seen the pictures of your new environment and they make my mind drift off..

It's official now..

I'm so happy for the two of you! You really belong with one another and I presume you'll have a bright future together.

You had a place of your own and so did your girlfriend. But it was a good decision to find a new place, so you could start all over. A fresh start, your new life with your new partner. It's better this way. You needed a house as close to work as possible. It took you some time to find the most fitted house, but once you had set your eyes on it, the decision was made. Your girlfriend was as happy:
a nice spacious house, a wonderful garden for the little one to play in, three bedrooms and an efficient kitchen. We live only 4 kilometres apart now.

You're nearly done moving things and you'll get used to this new lifestyle pretty soon. It's official now: the three of you can start your life together.. We wish you all the best!

Important issues

Today I'm seeing my endocrinologist for my annual check-up. I no longer fear these appointments, since I'm doing better managing my diabetes. I had to go in last week to have my bloodwork done. I'm having mixed feelings about the outcome: that 6.5% is really good but how I got it is not the right way. There were numerous low blood glucose readings on my meter, just too many. That makes the average numbers lower but not exactly better. Low readings are good, as long as that low means within range. I don't have those low numbers by choice though. My need for insulin has dropped extremely in the last year. I needed about 135 units of insulin on a daily basis in 2010. It still startles me that nowadays, my penfills last a whole lot longer: my daily average insulin use has dropped to around 35 units. I keep altering my basal pattern of my pump and the low blood glucoses of the last month prove I can go on lowering my need of insulin. I'm still a type 1 diabetic and I will always run on insulin, but the less I need, the better for me.

The only exam that makes me nervous, is the kidney function exam. Can you remind me to drink more?
I barely drink 2 - 3 glasses a day and that's so not enough. I know my kidneys will fail one day, if I don't increase that volume, but it's just that I'm never thirsty! It doesn't cross my mind to fill a glass of water and quench my thirst. Sometimes my kidneys hurt. They let me know I need more fluid in my body. It would be smarter to act before I get the notice.

My endocrinologist is a fun guy. He's Dutch and I like to discuss diabetes with him. Since I have a wonderful diabetes nurse who helps me out 24/7, there's no much need for a doctor. It's more like a social visit. I'd like to keep it that way. It means I have good management over this chronic condition..

Cheeky messages

I love it when you do that: those little notes you put on my pillow, really warm my heart.. It's not something you do weekly or even monthly but every now and then, you scribble something on a piece of scrap paper, to let us know you love us. That is so sweet... Little girls grow up and it's not that easy to tell your parents that you love them. That's why these cheeky messages are so important and welcome..

Loving and caring

The two of you are like Siamese twins: you can't be separated.. Little Inthe had to stay in the animal hospital for about 6 hours and Rebba went bananas.
As soon as Inthe got a shot in her bum to help her relax, you started to panic. Leaving her behind was not what you had in mind. You started to hyperventilate and you were shivering all over your body. Inthe had no idea what was going on, but she went into the bench, ready to be operated on.

We took you for a long walk, Rebba, and we had a hard time calming you down. You didn't feel at ease and you kept looking out for your little mate. It was so moving to see how you missed her. It's not easy to explain to a dog what's happening, is it? We walked and walked and had some coffees and lunch, before it was time to pick sweetie up. As soon as we got into the driveway of the hospital, you were alert. You didn't hesitate to enter the clinic this time, because you wanted to be near Inthe. What a joy when you finally reencountered. Inthe looked absolutely fine and she was all chipper and alive. We were so happy the operation went well and that she was doing so good.

Later on that night, the wound started to bother Inthe. There was no more anesthesia and you were hurting. Hubby was very gentle with you and carried you around the house. Rebba stayed close and didn't loose track of you. You both had a good night, snuggled in together in your bench. Rebba takes good care of you, Inthe. She's a real mommy.. Get wel soon, bunny!

How do you do it??

Both of you were in your rooms, sorting out things and cleaning up. Well, at least, that's what you were supposed to do. I climbed the stairs all the way up and that's when I heard you sing. I had never heard you sing before. In fact, you were playing your guitar and singing at the same time. The hairs in my neck stood right up.. How do you do it?? You have never taken guitar lessons and I had no idea you could sing so well???

I asked your sister and she confirmed your talent. She really enjoys the sounds you make. She even turned down the music on her TV to listen to you. She said you often sing and play the guitar or flute. I didn't know.. It's wonderful to listen to you. But as soon as I came into your room, you stopped playing/singing. Don't be ashamed: you're good!!!

I feel blessed..

Just a kiss

There's not much more I can do for you sweetie. There's not going to be any food in your bowl today. You had to stay sober for the big event. You have no idea why we're leaving that early this morning. You wouldn't want to miss a ride in the car, so you were all happy and chipper when I got both your and Rebba's leash. I had to bring Rebba too, because she goes frantic if we separate the two of you.

Rebba had the same operation some time ago. Things went well and we no longer need to worry about accidental pregnancy. But you, little Inthe, are so pretty and the boys are too fond of you. You know you are pretty and you sure like to present yourself to available partners. Ooh sweetie, my heart bleeds that you need to have this operation, but it will be safer and in the end better for you. We are not familiar with raising a nest of puppies and I would be devastated to have to let go of your offspring. So no, we can't do that. Trust me.. it's the best and only option for you.

I hope you'll be fine and the surgery will bring you not too much discomfort. We'll be very gentle with you today. Let me give you a kiss and a cuddle. Good luck honey.. xx

Now we're talking

I was supposed to meet three wonderful men yesterday. We had an appointment in the mall for a drink and a bite. It had been a while since I last saw our youngest date. I was real happy to see him and he looked fantastic! We share the same passion for cooking and he's so mature for his age, that it's a pleasure talking to him. What a fine young man! It shouldn't surprise you that we had dim sum for lunch and way too many latte macchiatos afterwards. A mutual friend would join us later, but somewhere down the line, he probably chickened out and sent his cat.. Too bad, because I'm pretty sure he would have loved the outing.
Somewhere in the afternoon, our other companion showed up. It was our first meeting and I had looked forward to that. He was in the hospital last August, and I had no chance to go visit him since we were having some fun in Florida. So we finally met and it was an interesting afternoon. The men I date are so versatile and different but then again so similar. They have mutual interests and hobbies and they all love to chitchat. It's a relieve to talk to men instead of women for a change. The conversations are different but as interesting;
Of course I don't really "date" these men.. I'm married remember? And they have partners too. Not to mention that they love men.. just the way I do or maybe just a little different.

Team leaders

Being part of a well functioning team is a privilege as much as a challenge. Working with both men and women may be confusing and exhausting, since each sex has a different way of communicating and working. Being a team leader is not an easy job and it needs a lot of people skills and insight. Some people will like the team leader, others won't. That's life. There are plenty of reasons why one will like/dislike the leader of the team. As long as all members keep respecting one another, it might work out well. There may be some disagreements every now and then and that's the moment when team leader and co-workers need to come together and discuss the issues. It's been proven a good way to solve problems. Things that need to be said, can be said and heard by all of the people involved. It's a good chance for all team members to open their hearts, mouths and ears.

Some issues are worth mentioning, others are just non-essential. It's up to the members to decide which problems are trivial or minor. Sometimes you interpret phrases in a different manner than they were spoken and that might give friction of some sort. Feeling unhappy and discontent is not going to solve anything. Negative feelings keep adding up until they become a pile that is doomed to tip over.

We all learn lessons in life. That's a good thing. It helps us to grow and to understand our fellow creatures.  It's not necessary to put issues in a negative daylight. They may be an opener to a better co-operation.

I hear you are a good team leader. People respect you for who you are and what you do. You try to be fair and not to side with anyone. They made the right decision to make you a team leader.

Ola supermercado!

I love to shop for groceries. I know that many people find that a chore, but to me it's a party! There are several supermarkets I frequent and I know where I need to be to get certain specialties. I don't mind if that means I have to drive to Holland to get a certain brand of soda or a small jar of summer truffle. It's worth the ride.

I'm always on the lookout for new ingredients or products I have not used before. Roaming around the store is like the best time to come up with new recipes. It's so inspirational! I prefer to go all by myself, so I can take my time and nobody gets annoyed if it takes me 20 min to pick up different products from the shelf.

Coming home and sorting out my groceries, requires some organization. Most of the time, the dogs can't wait to come help me and see if I brought them any goodies or a new toy (okay, that does happen, but the children reprimand me for that). I prefer them not to be around, so I can sort things out and make sure everything goes where it belongs. There's a foreign food space in my pantry and I just love to add new items to that section. I remember that red curry paste, that was so hot I had to rinse my food under the tap before I could eat it. New product, new experience, huh!

Cooking doesn't have to be boring. In fact, you don't need to make a dish twice in a whole month. Maybe it's time to make some more monthly menus? Good idea! Let's get started!

It's just a number

Diabetics are supposed to check their blood glucose before and after meals and around bedtime. Many of us check multiple times: between meals, before a long distance car ride, during illness, because there's a suspicion of a low or high blood glucose.. Sometimes even 10 times a day.. Every check means a report. The numbers on our blood glucose meter don't lie. They state nothing but facts. Not always pleasant facts, but facts nevertheless. Those numbers may be very confrontational, especially if those numbers are not within the range we want them to be.

A doctor's consultation requires a download of those numbers and seeing the print out can be even more disappointing. Sometimes you really dread those appointments and there must have been times when some of us rescheduled those appointments, because in advance we knew the outcome wasn't going to be comforting. So that's when you don't go.. But the numbers stay. They don't go anywhere, not even if you ignore them.

That's when diabetics may decide they no longer want that bad feeling. They stop checking their blood glucose and they skip the blood work. Because the confrontation is too hard. We don't always need numbers to know how we are doing. But sometimes the numbers decide for us. Highs and lows make us feel insecure. They may scare the heck out of us, because we know what longterm high A1c levels do to our bodies. Every blood work, every reading is some kind of report, like we are school kids. We sometimes get reprimanded for those numbers by our team, by our family, by ourselves..

Don't let the numbers get to you. They are just numbers. They don't say anything about you or about the person you are. At least, that's what doctors tell us. Doctors who don't have diabetes. Doctors who don't have to check their blood glucose 8 times a day and face the facts..

R.E.M.

You are too weird.. The way your eyes move around their sockets while your eyelids are not completely closed, is just freaky. The convulsions of your spiderlike legs are so strange, that you scare the girls. It's like you are running around in your dream and we are living that dream. The "writ" sounds you make while twitching your eyeballs, would go well in a Halloween scenario. I have tried to record those sounds with my BlackBerry, but I'm always just one minute late. I wonder if those dreams are actual nightmares to you? Are you afraid at the time? Or does it just look so weird to us? If only you could speak..

Seventh heaven

Three days we have been spending together. It had been a while since the 5 of us last went out. There was some catching up to do. But mostly we had fun and a good time.

It's time to unpack our suitcases. I had no idea what to bring this time. I have cleaned up my dressing many times in the last couple of months and there's not that much left. Would we go out to dinner? Would I need high heels to dress up? I didn't know and that's just the way I like it: you keep surprising us. You know what we like to do and you're good at planning fun activities. Thank you for caring!

's Hertogenbosch was a whole lot of fun: wonderful shops, good food, plenty of sun and a nice place to rest our bodies. Did I mention good company? It's always a joy to hang out together and this time wasn't any different. I have a completely new wardrobe and yes... I bought shoes and boots (again). But guess what? Hubby has become a shopaholic too! The times he had just one pair of shoes is long ago now.

This one street in 's Hertogenbosch is loaded with inviting restaurants. It can be compared to Leuven or Brussels in that manner and the atmosphere was very pleasant. We had dinner at In den zevenden hemel and the staff was so nice! The menu was amazing (in fact, I wanted to order 3 appetizers and have a 4th one as dessert) and I had a hard time picking out my preference. There were too many things I would have enjoyed. I made a good choice though and I hope this restaurant will be on our favorite places to go - list for the coming years.

My batteries are loaded again. I have fresh energy.

You look ravishing

Happy Birthday sunshine! Can't wait to see you and give you your birthday kisses. You have been away for a week and I must admit: I missed you!!! Although we kept in touch (thanks to the Internet), I wish I could have joined you to attend that interesting diabetes convention. But I'm sure you'll tell me all about it.

We will meet up some day soon. I want to give you a hug and tell you what a beautiful person you are. Have a wonderful day with your beloved husband and your gorgeous children. xx

Knowledge versus wisdom

Knowledge is knowing that tomato is a fruit.

Wisdom is knowing that you shouldn't put tomato in a fruit salad..

That goes for diabetes as well. Over the years, so many different articles have been published and new treatments were introduced. Times change so rapidly, that sometimes it's hard to keep up.

In the 9 years I have been "blessed" with D, I have learned so much. Although my grandmother was a diabetic, I didn't know much about the condition. I knew my grandpa had to shoot up insulin in her bum, but further than that? No.. we were ignorant at the time and there were no discussions with us children on the subject.. Later on in life, I found out that some of my aunts have diabetes too.
Once you're confronted with the disease, you either have the option to go hide yourself or to pull yourself together and learn more about your condition.

The first edition of Diabetesmagazine came in by mail. I'm very proud of this project and the lady behind it. She did a wonderful job at picking out themes and subjects for this more than interesting magazine. We were in touch on several occasions, to discuss the magazine and its contents. It's a positive approach and I like that. It'll be a magazine to keep, since there's also an interview with undersigned. Yes! Am I proud about that? You bet I am! I really like to inform people on diabetes and I'm more than willing to show them life doesn't have to end after the diagnosis. Times have really changed and diabetes gets noticed much sooner than in the old days. It's good to know the symptoms, so you can get treatment as soon as possible.

Feel free to order your own magazine. It's worth it..

It's oh so quiet

It's oh so still..

Life has gone back to normal. The children have adapted pretty fast in school. The youngest one is making new friends and her sister is happy to see her old mates. Now I see the ease of both girls attending the same school. Although they leave for school at different times and the oldest one is home before the other one decides that school is really out, the routine is different from last year. They won't admit it, but I'm pretty sure they are glad school has started again. Both girls do well in school. They get good grades and they are good at paying attention in class. I guess they do look a little after their mom..