Friday, March 21, 2014

What if happiness is not that obvious?

We all know the world is full of bellies carrying little babies. Once you're pregnant yourself or looking forward to having a baby, you see even more moms to be. One of my friends has had a baby just recently (and yes, I miss her and our chats, but don't we all know how busy our lives become once those little ones enter our homes), another one has a belly that is full of life and growing way too fast (I want to enjoy that wonderful sight of her pregnancy - I missed her previous one) and a third friend is in the early stage of expecting new life, while a fourth is about to deliver any time now.

Having two wonderful daughters of my own, I know what it's like to expect a child and give birth. I know the feeling of bringing new life into this world, the pain of being in labor and the happiness once that little creature uses its voice for the very first time. It's a feeling only moms can experience. Your life will never be the same, once you can call yourself a mom.

What if you have this dream, this one and only dream that would fill your life with so much joy and happiness that you would do anything to achieve your goal? What if things don't work out the way you want them to? Do people ever realize how hard it must be, when people ask you how come you haven't got children of your own? I can tell you: it hurts like hell. It sucks! It's not a good feeling at all... it can be very damaging indeed. Most of the time, the people asking, don't mean any harm. They are just trying to have a conversation and ask for the "obvious". But apparently it's not that obvious. Having children may not be that obvious at all. Sometimes the process can be really hard and the road to travel very long.  If only we could keep that in mind and support our friends and family that are so looking forward to having a little Prince or Princess of their own. An extra cuddle, some kind words and sympathy or small talk over a big mug of coffee. It's not that much to ask for. It's a delicate subject and there's not much you can do to help the other, but listen and understand. I care for you, my beautiful friend. I wish you all the best and all the luck in the world. My thumbs are still facing the stars. 

I have something up my sleeve

Having the Pisces sign, we knew you were going to be a creative mind. You have a good eye for art, music, fashion, photography, design. Sometimes you come up with real clever ideas. Things we would not have thought of. It is fun to watch your creativity grow and see you explore new dimensions. It's been some time now, since you started using those special markers. I had never even heard of them, but you know your ways around on the Net. I'm still astound by the wonderful drawings you make. The talent I lack in life, is patience. I can tell you: you have patience. I observe you making a piece of art in your sketch book, drawing fine lines and little patterns in a flowing way. You are gifted sweetheart. I am so proud of your latest project, you made for school. The school made it into a poster, to be hung all over school, so people would know about the project your class is involved in. You did real well. The fonts you chose, the colors you picked. Your artwork is neat and clean and unique. I like your style. No computer program involved, just your own creative ways..
Looking forward to seeing more of your talent. 

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Hello World

Your first birthday away from home.. You are not even that far away, but you are not home today to celebrate. I wanted to cuddle and kiss you and wish you all the best. I am sure you will have friends around to party and have a good time. I took the time this morning to go down Memory Lane. You were so tiny and small. We never planned on getting pregnant, but we were so happy with the new life in my belly. I can hardly believe you turned 19 today. Look what a beauty you have become... We are proud of you sweetheart <3  

Saturday, March 8, 2014

Things I enjoy always

  • Pampering my family
  • Cooking, not matter what time a day (or night)
  • Baking, the process and the result, not necessarily eating it (I'm not that much of a sweet tooth)
  • Meeting up with friends over lunch or/and dinner
  • Talk about diabetes
  • Surfing the Internet 
  • Good readings on my Dexcom
  • Hazelnut Creamer
  • High heels (I don't mind the sore feet afterwards)
  • Hugging our whippets
  • A new haircut or a good manicure
  • Traveling
  • A nice bouquet of flowers, for no particular reason
  • Family get togethers
  • The US
  • Movies based on true stories
  • Buying cookbooks and reading them like novels
  • Turn up the music in the car and sing along
  • A clean house (but I hate cleaning house)
  • Home made ravioli
  • Diet coke
  • Fine dining
  • New outfits from my favorite store
  • A perfect Latte Macchiato
  • Sheep skin slippers
  • Happy faces
  • The sun